Reader, I apologize for yesterday. I was sitting in front of a computer all evening. I could have posted. I should have. But I was ashamed. I had nothing to tell you of. No quiet little moment of joy squirreled away to tell you about later. It was wet outside, so I stayed in. I lay tangled in my sheets for hours, trying to think of nothing and succeeding. I bestirred myself in the evening, pretty much to go out hunting for sustenance and a moment of joy. I spoke to friends, listened to music, ate, drank and searched. I smiled several times yesterday, laughed out loud too; washed my freshly trimmed hair and flipped it about from side to side before the mirror. But I went to bed at 2 am, dissatisfied with the way the day had turned out and too ashamed to face you.
Today will be better. It has to be.
I have to say I am shocked. If the news reports are believed, it was raining yesterday in Mumbai and I have always felt a sort of pleasant comfort during the rains.
ReplyDeleteI would have thought you could have found that moment of happiness in the rain and conjured up the perfect words to describe it in a jiffy.
But as you said, I look forward to tomorrow. It has to be better.
P.S: I just wanted to clarify seeing as you have at least 3 anonymous readers now. I am posting as "Your Anonymous Reader". :)
I didn't think it could happen... but your blog makes me miss fifth year (it refers to missing fifth year of course, not your blog :p). I particularly love the post about crows, those darned crows. Keep it going!
ReplyDeleteTrue, happiness is the state of mind. The mere acts of doing the same routine is not so very satisfying. Well! that is also peace, moments that trigger joy will be there for sure!
ReplyDelete@Anonymous Reader, you give me far too little to go upon. I shall be very Sherlock Holmes and make the deduction that if you had to learn from news reports about the weather in Mumbai, you are not currently here. That, combined with the knowledge that you were in New Zealand five years ago still leaves me bewildered...
ReplyDelete@Tanny, thank you ever so much. I'm so glad you're reading my blog. I shall most certainly keep it going.
@Anon, you are so right. It is those moments of joy that I search for daily now :)